Sometime in my childhood, I also remember having a dream about an orange. In the dream I was desperately hungry for one. I vividly remember the strong craving and went to a nearby fruit stall to buy one. I paid my money and bought my precious fruit. Oh happiness! I was so looking forward to eating it!
I took it home, started unwrapping my purchase only to discover that the orange I had bought was actually a banana. I remember the sense of disappointment in the dream because the craving for citrus was so very real.
I think this dream has been a picture of my story. I was craving an orange and life handed me a banana instead. My life looks very different to what I expected. It's not bad, in fact it's pretty good; it's just not the shape I thought it would be. I was expecting something geometric or standardised I guess. Instead, my life is turning out to be unique and something almost free form.Free form is a shape I learnt about from a diamond expert I once met. Basically, instead of cutting rocks into normal diamond shapes, free form is where they cut along the natural contours of the rough diamond and consequently end up with a stone that's a different shape to any other. So if my destiny is like a free form stone, then it won't look like any other destiny that's been shaped before. And because there's no formula, it'll be interesting to see how this all turns out. :)
I'm excited about my banana life now. So, instead of grieving over my lost orange, in my orangelessness I've discovered that the world does not revolve around citrus fruit! I've finally gotten over it and am excited about eating the banana. I guess sometimes things don't always turn out the way we expect. I've decided though to let go of the oranges and leave some room for God to surprise me!
